I had the most horrible dream on Friday night. I dreamed I had a miscarriage and lost the baby. It was so real that it woke me up and the whole next day I was really bothered by it -- my whole mood was affected. I had the dream because I was worried about something the doctor said to me on Thursday about my cervix being inflamed, and how some studies have shown that this can cause premature labor. I was upset because when I got that pap originally, the folks at the Jones said nothing at all about the inflamation. I guess I just worried about it without really thinking about it and out my worries came in this horrific dream. Just the absolute worst. Gah. Anyway, I am feeling much better now because I talked with Elizabeth and she explained what happened and why the pap might show inflamation. I just did not understand what happened or how serious it might be. She reassured me that everything was fine, and she figured it was not serious enough to even mention because inflamation like that can be caused by sex, which made me feel a lot better. Whew. I should not drive myself crazy with this stuff. I am having a good pregancy. The baby is doing great. I am doing great. Just let it go.

Yesterday was a great day. I went to see a talk by the author of Odd Girl Out. and it was great! I have lots to talk to Lil about, but she is still not quite old enough for all this stuff to be a really big deal. But one thing the author said did make me prick up my ears -- she said that if your daughter is always choosing the meanest girl for her friend, that she might benefit from some counseling. Lil is always picking the meanest girl for her best friend. It started first in preschool with Sophia, then Rachel and Dara and Becka in K -- it is like she picks the hardest cases to be friends with. Why? There are so many nice girls in her class, and she has to take up with Dara, who is so mean, I cannot have her over to the house anymore because she creates so much strife. She turns my daughters against each other and everyone is made miserable. Well, I can tell you, this talk was a real eye opener for me.

Winter is approaching fast, Hanukkah just a day away now, and excitement has reached a fever pitch at home. Presents, thankfully, are generally wrapped and ready, and shopping, thank the Lord, is done. I am thinking about Latkes and donuts and Hanukkah gelt, and all the wonderful things that go along with the holiday. Also, just 21 days until the GRE. I had better get with the math!!