I am simply exhausted. I feel like I am at work so much of the time and I hardly get to see my family now. Ugh. But that is not really true, I just feel that way. I am not sleeping well at all. I keep waking up worrying that I will be late, or that the alarm will not go off or something like that. I have got to get myself worked out. Really.

On the positive end of things, it is spring and flowers are blooming all around. My irises popped out today and they look fabulous. So do the azalias -- ours are a salmon pink color that is just stunning, and they run the front and side of the house so everything is flowers. The purple ones on the fence are delicous and there is one snowy white bush that looks just like a snow pillow. Also, my mini roses are blooming away, everything feels good. Should be a nice weekend with the girls. I am looking forward to some good rest.

OK, so work is wearing me out, but that is ok, because it is only for two years. I am liking the work ok, but the commute is not the best. I hate being there for more than 8 hours and feel like a cheat when I leave before I've been there a full 9. It just seems like it is expected, and I am just not into a 9 hour day. I can't take it. Ugh. I'd better get with it and get my PhD before I go crazy. Anyway perhaps we will move out of this G-dforsaken state before I bust a vein getting upset about the complete disregard legislators have for actual people here. Gah. People. Sometimes I wish they would all disappear. Well, maybe not all people, but I could think of a few that could go without tears on my part. Perhaps I would throw them a party before booting them out of this world just to let them know how very happy it would make me if they'd all leave. Sigh. I am this bitter and I'm not even that old yet. Thank goodness I have Carl and my girls. They certainly make things better around here -- they make life worth living, the lot of them! Love you love you love you so much!!